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Identifying as a witch is the most powerful thing I have ever done for myself, let me tell you why…

My spiritual belief started at an absolute big fat zero. My family identify themselves as atheists, meaning that they have no religious or spiritual beliefs.

Although, I don’t think it has always been zero because I do remember a time my mum asking me whether I believe in ‘God’. I’m sure I had been learning about Christianity at primary school & was probably telling her all about it. But I distinctly remember responding; ‘I don’t believe there is a God as there is in Christianity, but I do believe that there is something.’. I was probably only around 6 years old at this time, my mum didn’t diminish what I said, just kind of brushed over it, like; ‘Ok, cool’, as you do sometimes with your kids when you’re just trying to be interested in what they are trying to talk your ear off about.

Trust me, I was one of those kids too. Still, now I can talk at you at about a million miles an hour or ask a trillion questions in one go. My brain has always worked at a fast pace & sometimes my mouth cannot keep up. 

My childhood was pretty standard, although I was always the ‘black sheep’, the ‘odd one’, the ‘different kid’. None of my family really understood the way my brain works or the things that I have an interest in. Metaphysics doesn’t exist, they are only open to the physical realm. They have not yet had the experience of opening their minds & awakening their souls.

I have always loved to learn about the universe. As a child, I only understood the universe on a physical level so I would dive deep into learning everything I possibly could about space. Visiting the library & checking out whatever books I could find in my local town tiny book stock. I remember asking for a telescope time & time again. But always getting to use my godfathers instead. I think my godfather (yes, I am christened because that was the done thing back in 1994) had a lot to do with moulding me into the person I am today.

As I went through my teenage years, I went through a lot of mental & physical trauma. From relationships turning sour, being a general shitty teenager etc… I wasn’t the best person to be around from around the age of 11 to 22. On a path of destruction, complete & utter chaos. I had lost any connection that I had with the universe or the higher powers & completely wiped them out of my life. Abusive relationships, drug abuse, drinking way too much, being homeless & being mixed up with some really nasty people.

At the age of 19, I did meet my partner & the father of my children; this is when life did start to smooth out & settle down for me. But I still didn’t have any of that connection. I was just going through the daily grind. I worked in a residential care home as the head chef, I worked long hours & weekends. At the time my partner was also working as an apprentice so his wage wasn’t great. It was my job that had to pay the bills whilst he studied & worked his way through his qualifications.

At the age of 21, I fell pregnant with our first child. On my 22nd birthday, just over a month before Dexter was born, I made the decision that I didn’t want to go back to work & wanted to be able to stay at home with my son, not pay for someone else to look after him which would probably swallow all of my wages anyway. I decided to reach out to a girl that had contacted me before about starting my own business.

Taking the leap & opened my wholesale account with this incredible skincare & make-up company. I started to learn the ropes & try to take the first steps to have a successful business. I had no fucking idea what I was doing. So, I reached out to my friend that was in network marketing & asked her for some friendly advice. I remember her message so clearly. “Hannah, you should look into LOA”, I’m reading the message over & over again, what the fuck is “LOA”? I even googled it, but nothing came up then, this is back before it started trending mind. Maybe I would have had more luck if it was today. I couldn’t find the answer, so I asked. Then she spelt it out for me “Law of Attraction”.

This is where it all began for me. When my connection started to wield itself back to the cosmic realm. Of course, it didn’t just happen overnight. I also didn’t start working on LOA or mindset consistently for a long time. I’m not great at routine & structure, so it took me a really long time to find things that fit into my life & work for more. Because there is nothing worse than making LOA or mindset work a chore. You will not be in your full state of flow or giving out the correct energies.

I truly believe that having Dexter opened up that opportunity for the connection again by having the innocents & purity of a child so close to my soul. I spent the next year working on my business, practising LOA, working on my mindset & turning it from a set mindset to a growth mindset. As well as learning everything I possibly could about running a business.

Just 12 months & 3 weeks after Dexter was born, we had our daughter, Skylah. Dexter really did open up that world for me again, but having Skylah, really finalised that connection. She forced me to learn more about the metaphysics of the world, how the moon affects your body, etc… because she is so connected to the higher powers. She pushed me into that world so deep that there is no possible way I could climb back out again.

After Skylah was born, I actually made the decision to walk away from the world of business. I wanted to focus on my spiritual journey & be able to share that with people. Giving them an insight into the world of metaphysics, witchcraft & manifestation.

Today, I fully identify as a witch & people know me as a witch. But I would not have always had the confidence to do this! I was brought up to think that people that identify as witches should be locked up in a straight jacket somewhere because magic isn’t real. When in reality, they just didn’t understand it on the same level as the witches. I have also come to learn that you don’t have to have a big warty nose or green skin to be a witch. Witches come in many forms. I wouldn’t have had the confidence to identify myself as a witch at the start of my spiritual journey & it has probably only been the last year that I would say it to friends & in the last 6 months I would say it to a stranger.

But that’s okay, a lot of people choose to never let anyone know that they are witches & keep everything to themselves. You have to do whatever you are comfortable with, but don’t get too comfortable. It is always good to push ourselves that little bit further because that’s how we grow.

Identifying as a witch has been absolutely life-changing for me on so many levels. I am now back to building my very own business. My confidence has grown an incredible amount & because of all the positive changes my friends & family have seen within me, they too have become extremely accepting of my witchy ways. My partner & father of my children has also started identifying as a witch, which is honestly something I never expected to happen.

I have also incorporated a lot of my witchy self into my business, showcasing the skills & knowledge in ways for people to join me & start identifying as a witch themselves if they wish to do so. Providing a safe space for everyone to be free with no judgement.

Remember, witchcraft is all around us in our everyday life, we give back to the earth by planting trees with Ecologi. Identifying as a witch can come out in many different ways. It mostly depends on perspective.

Read about Witch Basics here & Witchcraft VS Religion here.

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